theology of divinity schools

Often, I find my studies trapped in the theology of my professors. Sadly, they try hard to balance their own theology with various "remnant" writers, however, often times I wonder if this is merely done through a book review used to keep the professor's tenure or if it is done actually because the professor holds these remnants theology as similar to their own.

the religious reality of God (teaching youth to love God)

i will not lie- i am scared beyond anything of teaching Christian Spirituality to a bunch of 12th graders in the spring.

it may be a subject i have studied for 2.5 years, but it is a subject that i feel i have yet to even tap the ice on. i haven't even gotten a hole to drop a fishing line through, and i am supposed to educate students on how to develop and reach the depths of God.

it may seem silly, but my goal is to educate 20+ students on how to reach the depths of God, deeper than i can, and yet my fear is the fact that i don't reach deep enough to model.